Luna's Journal

Entry 01: Uncertainty

"Day 1 has passed for me ever since i was approached by Nanase to join his secret organization Echelon...and already i have found it hard to cope.
On the plus side ive met and made friends with people who seem to care for me and want to help me. I havent had that since i had that dream and woke up to this nightmare.
Ive even begun to become fond of Nanase..who has been a great friend to me...it feels nice and im glad i joined...but...now i find it harder to control my power.
I already had issues with it from the beginning but now its gotten worse...i barely can hold it back when it manifests...i almost hurt them all today...even Nanase who has experienced it four times today...i dont know what id do if i cant warn them fast enough and i seriously hurt them.

Was joining them a Mistake?

Entry 02: Girls Night Out: To Fear or not to Fear?

"Since weve found out that the Alternia Trigger is in Egypt...ive been anxious...just wanting to find it and end my fear.
But i know theres alot of planning for us to do...and we dont know exactly where the trigger is.
With Nanase making all the arrangements...and Jasper working around the clock...ive been on my own...still afraid..and on my path of "Self-Destruction".
As i practiced trying to gain control..i was shocked to get a call from the Vice Director Annlouice.
She was investigating a lead that developed from all the stories and legends spoken from the survivors around the Savage Coast... that the visitors of another land...were Vikings...fighting here years ago.
I was afraid of my powers getting out of control..but i went with her...wanting the chance to not be a burden to the group...and being intrigued of the possibility.
Sadly..i did become a burden again...while we got closer to obtaining our answers..i was careless.
I let my guard down for a second..only to turn seeing another one of those hideous bugs charging me...knocking me into a tree.
I was injured..and unable to move for awhile..being protected by Ann...no matter how many came...she wouldnt leave my side...and even though i was afraid..and in pain...i never lost control...i never felt so..safe...and cared for...since i was with my Grandmother.
After i was able to walk..we made it back to a military camp nearby..but i was unable to follow after Ann to acquire the answers with my own eyes. She left me there to be treated..and for me to rest...so i did..hoping that she would be alright.
She returned after a few hours passed injured herself..but not that bad...the Medics at the camp treated her wounds as she told me what she found. It was amazing hearing her discovery...but ill keep it between us for now. *Wink*

Ever since i joined Echelon..i was afraid...of what my powers could do..or would do to anyone i got close too...fearing...it would make things worse. But now...after getting closer to Nanase...and Annlouice...being loved...and cared for...

Should i fear it?